The people monitoring me in private keep tormenting me like I'm bad when I already have been feeling bad and make fun of me and act like they will make an older European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with ruined.

It's also like they want to beat me until I'm callous, unfeeling, and rather dead.

I don't see how life will be okay if the lady dies, as they are focusing on her having a good life and like I can't be as happy with her.