Wednesday, July 21, 2021

So, they are still acting like a maybe English-Australian lady is talking to me at any point throughout the day and like they ruined my "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older Late Baby Boomer European lady.

They think nothing they do matters and I should just deal with it.  It's really hurting me...

They just keep making my life bad...  I get messages all day against me and a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady.

I keep being tormented by the people monitoring me in private, and my private keeps feeling bad and affected.

I was told not to worry, but they are wondering why I should have it better later if I'm not okay now.

I am worried because even when I left Orlando and then left the first group home, they managed to help ruin the experience.  I'm trying to relocate to the Freiburg, Germany area.

The people monitoring me in private and this maybe English-Australian lady are acting like disgusting, obnoxious beasts to me, trying to get too close communicating with me all day and acting like they have to ruin a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older Late Baby Boomer European lady.

I'm just here in a group home trying to feel better.  I can't with the people here and these problems.  My life should change for the better.

They think they have to make me suffer or an older Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Life comes with things like that, but this is to a harmful degree and extent.

They just seem to keep going stupid on me, like the joke is okay.  It could also come up as "what it looks like" and like I didn't realize that.

Life has more to offer than this, or so it had.

They keep acting like a lady to replace the other lady and think about her during my day.  She is getting too close and trying to ruin my life.  They just go stupid and make some explanation or that people actually agreed and then sorta drift off and like it's okay.  I'm just saying.  People blame my dad, who died, and the people monitoring me in private, who also blamed my dad primarily.  This lady also ruins the other lady.  This lady is going crazy, she's English-Australian, I think.  The people monitoring me in private keep doing it.  No one seems to want to realize it.

The people monitoring me in private enforce suggested situations on me, and I forget what else I was going to say.

They just keep doing it like it will happen somehow anyway and they make sure they "get it out."  They think because they're not doing it in person that it's okay and I should learn to deal with it like nothing happened.  This happens all day.