I have to deal with warding off a feeling certain times that maybe it's actually help and relates to an older European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

They keep bothering me more and more, like I have to realize I will never make it in life.

I get these feelings when they load the page a certain way, and now they act like I shouldn't wonder how etc.

The people monitoring me in private seem so silly and immature, if it has anything to do with them maybe, still?  I can't even settle down to sleep now and it's 1:45 A.M., and breakfast is maybe 9:30 A.M., and I usually feel so bad to wake up and stay in bed all day.  I'm stressed trying to move to a new group home, with healthier food, like some have with a variety of options even.