They won't stop complicating my life and playing mind games, in ways just to stall hopefully living an okay life without their problems getting in my way indefinitely.

Because I accidentally thought they sucked and still made myself feel happy a certain way, they act like I won't really see the real European Late Baby Boomer lady for who she is, like she's someone else and not connecting to me as her.

They keep acting like someone is around as a punishment for being happy in a certain way after I accidentally thought the people monitoring me in private sucked.

Stuck With Them

The people monitoring me in private keep ruining everything, acting all confident and energized and in control but like they're ticked at me for not thinking I deserve to be abused indefinitely and maybe because I was fed up with them when they are so mean if any little thing goes wrong and because of it showed physical anger in private in proximity of something to do with a European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Like the Orlando area, the Cleveland area knows about her and keeps thinking about her.

She was gonna make me feel better, but Cleveland tortured her because I masturbated.

I am having a hard time feeling like living, and I just get beat by the people monitoring me in private, like they're cornering me and shouting out excuses that the lady did it, like it has to satisfy them.  They use special tactics supposedly from Ellen DeGeneres, like they get by without getting in trouble.  They don't feel guilty.  They must be racist, too, and act like fat Italian ladies with problems.

A New Weapon of Choice

They keep attacking me and a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady because I thought that they sucked when upset sorta by accident and I still made myself feel better in a certain way.  Usually, they just kinda go through what happens with me, but now they think they're cracking down.

Is my life gonna be okay?

The people monitoring me in private just keep getting worse, and it was supposed to get better.

I know things took off bad when I showed physical signs of anger in private in proximity of something to do with a Late Boomer European lady I was supposedly supposed to have a relationship with, back in February.

Also, they keep bringing up an English-Australian lady I found in October.