They keep trying to affect me with noises and turn me off to things.

I can't make myself feel better in a certain way after they were suggestive about my brain.

The people monitoring me in private keep acting coy.  I already am feeling very low too much, and they think they have to upset me.

They are covering "new territory."

They just keep "pushing it" like I can't feel upset when it's appropriate to feel so.

People are too stupid or delirious to figure out if they are hurting me.

They keep appearing from behind the curtains with more problems.

They were acting autistic again, like they can deconstruct my thoughts and say I'm causing trouble for something related or that might have come up, like I'm awkward and that therefore a Late Boomer European older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with should be ruined.

I keep feeling like I should die, but I wouldn't take my life, but here they are all fresh like nothing matters and I should just ignore all this.

I keep feeling pressure that it's about following this lady into death and never really living.  They are trying to make me feel worse about this.

They can't "do the math" themselves and wonder why I'm in bed recuperating longer, instead of finally setting my room up and to practice violin and learn German.