I keep being tormented by the people monitoring me in private, and my private keeps feeling bad and affected.

I was told not to worry, but they are wondering why I should have it better later if I'm not okay now.

I am worried because even when I left Orlando and then left the first group home, they managed to help ruin the experience.  I'm trying to relocate to the Freiburg, Germany area.

The people monitoring me in private and this maybe English-Australian lady are acting like disgusting, obnoxious beasts to me, trying to get too close communicating with me all day and acting like they have to ruin a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older Late Baby Boomer European lady.

I'm just here in a group home trying to feel better.  I can't with the people here and these problems.  My life should change for the better.

They think they have to make me suffer or an older Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Life comes with things like that, but this is to a harmful degree and extent.

They just seem to keep going stupid on me, like the joke is okay.  It could also come up as "what it looks like" and like I didn't realize that.

Life has more to offer than this, or so it had.

They keep acting like a lady to replace the other lady and think about her during my day.  She is getting too close and trying to ruin my life.  They just go stupid and make some explanation or that people actually agreed and then sorta drift off and like it's okay.  I'm just saying.  People blame my dad, who died, and the people monitoring me in private, who also blamed my dad primarily.  This lady also ruins the other lady.  This lady is going crazy, she's English-Australian, I think.  The people monitoring me in private keep doing it.  No one seems to want to realize it.

The people monitoring me in private enforce suggested situations on me, and I forget what else I was going to say.

They just keep doing it like it will happen somehow anyway and they make sure they "get it out."  They think because they're not doing it in person that it's okay and I should learn to deal with it like nothing happened.  This happens all day.

First, they made me think I was being tacky all the time.

Now, a lady is stuck in my head in how I act proper sometimes.  They keep having her like she's talking to me and replacing an older Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

I have to deal with warding off a feeling certain times that maybe it's actually help and relates to an older European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

They keep bothering me more and more, like I have to realize I will never make it in life.

I get these feelings when they load the page a certain way, and now they act like I shouldn't wonder how etc.

The people monitoring me in private seem so silly and immature, if it has anything to do with them maybe, still?  I can't even settle down to sleep now and it's 1:45 A.M., and breakfast is maybe 9:30 A.M., and I usually feel so bad to wake up and stay in bed all day.  I'm stressed trying to move to a new group home, with healthier food, like some have with a variety of options even.