Communications involving the people monitoring me in private etc. are all too often of an unwanted quality in this already dejected life.

They got so self-righteous, uncaring, selfish, out-of-control, and authoritarian, that they showed a European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with hurting me following them, like putting down a tube into green boiling liquid, like it didn't matter and there's some explanation in the end, as usual.  I was just thinking about it, so they wasted my time to have to post about their echoing my thoughts again just for something to do.  It seems someone thinks I'm worthless, so they decided to use that as an excuse.

They acted like I'm in a cage and they just casually said in their current popular mood, "No, too bad," and left like it was nothing.

They are trying to make me deal with something like a problem a lot and make it not go away.

They were taken aback because I have a range of moods for a range of situations.  So, they did it again.

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The people monitoring me in private, after some people said something questionable, randomly tapped in like I'm nothing and interrupted me, like I've done something by posting my problems here yesterday, and now it's hard for me to focus on something.

I'm already very miserable and feel so bad emotionally and psychologically.

It looks like they messed up my life, and honestly who wants people who do ruin my life?

They said because they're easily pissed off for no reason that now the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with gets inappropriately stimulated in public from time to time and people feel it.  This didn't happen before.

They keep acting like it's okay.

They are hurting me in more aways.

The people monitoring me in private popped up saying a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with was like them acting tippy like I "did something" and she was so stimulated by someone she could not do anything again.

They just want to goof around and ruin my life.

They keep making me take things in stride.

This is the first time they said an European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with was stimulated so she can't do anything and that if she sees someone she will do this.

I have decided the people at the group home are mean to me.

I suspect people are tagging onto a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with to make problems worse, when she's not some weirdo.

It seems like they have a problem and if I do anything that displeases them or seems like an issue, they pop up later like they're answering me and bringing it up as a topic in an annoying action, like it's my life's cycle ... and, if others make it a big deal or I post about it or something, there comes another problem.  People make a big deal of it but usually keep disagreeing.

The people monitoring me in private keep coming back to bother me and don't focus.

The people in this group home keep messing with me, too.

Boy, the people monitoring me in private don't take my life seriously and won't stop being mean to me and ruining it for me and with the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Someone keeps bombarding me that I'm not good enough, like I wasn't the same as a baby or if I'm only around certain people I can't be around others etc.

They wait for something big and then do something to ruin my life or the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, saying it's because I posted here or something.

I notice they trail me like my relatives do with their kids when I did nothing wrong.

They're acting coy again like I posted a lot of frustration here and I must be punished.

They went and ruined my life just like that because it's not the goal I have the problems I just posted.  I'm supposed to bring it "in stride."

I tried to deal with something, but I was bothered more and it is a real problem.

The people in charge aren't "competent" enough and have helped ruin the world.

They also act like they have to do something she does that makes it seem humiliating because people question her just because she's so special to me and want to be involved with her too and act like she's different in an inappropriately stimulating way.

They say because my dad said something his mom blurted out that it has to be true, like he said, used often, that if something happens around something "why, then, it must be related."

Would you say my life is already ruined enough?

They keep acting like a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" if she thinks something they make it worse against me, "just to be safe" and ... just to "have something to do" to bother me.

They are extending a problem, acting like I was the one who behaved inappropriately.

I want to get out of this group home soon, but they want to say then that they messed up my life first.

They keep acting like they can't control their thoughts and problems to me.

They keep making me take their sworn problems for me in stride throughout the days, and I can't keep up and post them all here.

They say a nice Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with "turned on me."

The people monitoring me in private keep acting like they're acting me out as being tacky and submissive.  It just seems to go off.

The people monitoring me in private keep telling me how I am and staring me down.

They threaten to do that with a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

They have wasted my life.  They think it's okay.

The people monitoring me in private won't stop trying to tell me I will think of things I don't like at certain times.

The people monitoring me in private keep having problems.

It's like they were lying and my problems won't be solved.

I keep feeling like feelings and dispositions are being forced on me, like I'm not "that good."

They just keep making it worse like they're sure they have to win, when it's particularly "unintelligent" or "stupid" in vital ways.

If I post here, they apparently are beginning to say they are torturing a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Why would anyone want to deal with some of these things in certain ways?  It's like my life is on a track of some sort, in a partially annoying way.  People keep coming up with "a gift" to suggest new things to criticize my life about...

I keep getting messages that people are doing mean things to me, but they fizzle out, claiming it was a group effort and all the people involved individually are innocent.

People like to mess with me and tell me what I was just like, too, pretending.

It seems that people who are older than me like to hunt me down with seemingly complex messages and torment me to follow and deal with each message.

They acted like I wasn't good enough for some people and that I can only affect certain people, meaning I'm of some lower caliber in their fantasy.

When I post here, they want the last word and for me to take all these problems in stride.

Apparently, someone "has" to say something and wants to torment me and "put me in my place" like I was spoiled or "just lucky."

I was upset in general being mistreated also in excess by those around me, and they said I did something wrong.  I was also being tormented by those around me.

I'm happy I can move out of this group home it seems.

Things aren't okay now after all, and I keep being bothered by them.

I had a problem, and it kept bothering me, and because I was upset by people around me in general tormenting me, they said they changed the message like they were holding me under terms and conditions.

They keep digging into me unwelcome like I want these people to get close to me like that.

I'm already 35, and a lot of people "don't care about" my life.

They've apparently taken time out of life to hunt me down in the end, causing problems supposedly they were just trying to solve, but it's been 16 years.

A lot of suggestive things are getting by me.

They've gotten people involved in the game, dumping problems on me, like I have nothing better to do.  These problems lag onto me.

They can't figure out how to get their own act together about me.

They keep tipping situations at me like I have to play with them as an insult in part and ruining my life.

Well, now they are messing with how I play the violin, and of course they're just staring me down all the time, like that's all I need and this is the life.

I already know, they will think something stupid like, "Hm, Christina displayed more frustration, let's make it worse as punishment because I can't handle my own life if something wasn't perfect it must have been her 'bad.'"

I do know, I was upset about a lagging nuisance, and the people I saw turned it into a big deal.  It's like I'm just being laughed at by those responsible, while my life is ruined.